Pisces New Moon: My relationship with Truth and Connection

Pisces is not just love and dreaminess

It’s also:

• illusion

• avoidance

• saviour/victim dynamics

• longing for something that may not actually exist in reality

So this energy can just as easily create:

• idealising someone unavailable

• wanting connection but not tolerating real intimacy

• merging without clarity

For me this moon isn't really about intimacy, meeting someone new, improving relationships. Its about:

My relationship to truth in connection

I've been working through my resonance modality and where I've been feeling uncomfortable. And it comes down to my unwillingness to risk connection for the sake of truth. I see truth, I can see patterns and trauma and blindspots. Yet I can't find the right way to land this. Because it's such a nuanced skill - the skill of a coach to bring a client to the truth without ever having to name it so it beuatifully unfolds before them. The skill of a therapist to reveal just enough layers at just the right moment so as not to overwhelm or retraumatise. Working with people in the moment to sense-make together and weave a path.

I do not have this skill. And so I don't believe that I can do this work. My truth doesn't arrive in the moment in a way that allows me to weave the path with the client. My truth arrives in a great big flash a few days after several sessions. Its a big truth then, its the whole picture, and I can't see how to land it in a way that doesn't trigger people. And what does it risk?

• getting it wrong and feeling like I have no real power to detect truth

• getting it right but making the client feel that they are broken or made terrible life choices, I risk hurting people

• making people feel unsafe around me, like I see too much or can't be trusted with them

• I don't think people want someone around who delivers these truth pronouncements in my clumsy way

This cuts right to the heart of my purpose. If I am to build bridges for people to truth, if my skill is to see big complex patterns and call them out, then I need to be able to risk connection.

I often soften truth, skirt around it, sit holding it eternally getting increasingly frustrated that only I can see it. This is my Pisces work:

Where do I see truth...but soften or avoid to keep connection.

And I'm curious about how I take this with me into this next period of Jupiter-led expansion.

The Pilgrims Truth Spread

1. The Longing (Pisces Opening)

What is my heart actually yearning for right now in connection?

Seven of Swords Reversed and Waterfall: Effortless

This is what I long for exactly: connection that feels effortless, and where I don't have to strategise, filter, decieve or hide.

This is adaptive intelligence I've used for years and come to rely on: witholding, softening, shaping. To anticipate what's required of me.

2. The Distortion

Where is this longing becoming blurred, idealised, or misdirected?

Six of Fire (light on water) and The Journey

Six of Fire shows :

• harmony

• illumination

• beauty

• clarity

…but all dancing on the surface

This is the key distortion: I perceive something real… but stay at the level where it still looks beautiful and coherent.

Instead of:

• naming the tension

• naming the misalignment

• naming what doesn’t quite land

I stay with:
✨ “the light dancing on the water”

And then I convert it to a journey, I decide to travel together and hope that eventually it will become clear, eventually I'll find my moment, eventually after a long enough journey the person will become open enough to receive the truth. And on that journey I become increasingly frustrated and annoyed and someone bound to them, part of the problem even. But it allows the connection to continue without rupture and that's what I'm prioritising.

The risk (this is the Jupiter misalignment):

My Jupiter path is:
clarity, direction, truth that moves me forward

This distortion keeps me in:
meaning without movement

It feels rich. Insightful. Deep.

But nothing actually changes. It stagnates.

4. The Cost of Not Saying my Truth

What happens — internally or relationally — when I withhold this truth?

Ace of Pentacles and Medicine Wheel

Action isn't taken, an opportunity is missed, a new beginning or chapter can't take hold. The wheel can't turn, the medicine doesn't take. Its stagnation disguised as depth. Unspoken truths keep cycles open.

Truth isn't just relational, it's direction setting. I close a loop I open the next and the Ace of Pentacles becomes available, like a seed dropping into a wheel.

3. The Truth I already see but don't say

My gift and my edge

King of Swords and Tsunami: wake up call

This is a clarity that cuts through illusion. I see:

• the psychological pattern

• the power dynamic

• the wound underneath

• the behaviour that sustains it

Often before the other person does.

And it delivers truth as a wake up call, and in the form of a tsunami. I draw back the curtain of avoidance and the denial and the person is forced to face the truth

5. The Jupiter Pathway (North Node Activation)

What does aligned, expansive connection actually look like for me now?

Nine of Fire (Alchemy) and Acceptance: Cycle of Life

Revelation, Abundance, Reciprocity, Generosity, Gratitude

It;s aligned, two-way nourishment, natural, a pattern of divine perfection: every seed becomes a stem, every stem bears a bud, every bud blossoms into a flower, every flower becomes a fruit. Cut the fruit open and behold the magic and the mystery - 5 seeds arranged in perfect symmetry as the star. The star the Pilgrim wears around her neck.

No connections are ever really lost, there is only change.

Not everything becomes what I want it to be

• some people cannot meet me

• some dynamics won’t transform

• some connections end or plateau

And my path is:

to see that clearly… and stay open anyway

From light into dark, from death into life, no end and no start and the wheel keeps turning. Let go of expectations of how truth should land or how connections should weave.

This is what it looks like when the medicine wheel can turn and the seed can take root.

6. The Bridge

What is one way I can express truth without overwhelming myself or the other?

Three of Cups Reversed and TimeMaster

Change my level of participation, accept that I'm not in this to make friends. Break free from limited cause-and effect thinking by moving beyond the linear illusion. I imagine the effect that I will be having, but I'm making an assumption, perhaps the world is more complex and my truth spoken will have impacts I can't conceieve of.

7. The Initiation

What will shift if I walk this path of truth in connection?

Eight of Earth and Clouds: Shapeshifting

I become grounded into body and place, into what is really here. Right now, a lot of my energy goes into:

• interpreting connection

• sensing deeper layers

• holding complex truths internally

When I walk this more direct path, that energy returns to:

Direct experience of life. Grounded into guardian mountains, palms, ocean, sand. Being here and now.

I will be able to adapt, to stretch myself beyond my comfort zone. I feel so rigid now when I have to hold this complexity, I don't know how to be myself. I am ungrounded and rigid.

I will become immediate and responsive.