Gemini New Moon Tarot | The Twelve Trials of a Soul Messenger

If life feels like an endless series of trials—grief, fear, uncertainty piling one atop the next—this is a space for you. In this piece, I explore how the soul’s journey often takes the shape of myth, and how the cards can help us listen for meaning beneath the suffering. When we’re lost in the dark, it’s not clarity we need, but a story large enough to hold our becoming. This is a reflection on transformation, tarot, and the quiet power of knowing you are being shaped for something sacred.

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Maryann Covington

5/26/20256 min read

I create spreads in Tarot for New Moons and Full Moons.

I try to resist bombarding my Tarot with constant questions and demands to know. My quest for needing to know has calmed considerably since my Finding Clarity Constellation. Instead I use these natural thresholds as ways to bring more presence and awareness to what I really want to understand about my path, my direction, what my soul longs for.

It's been a very challenging first half of the year. I feel like I'm being tested with every wound, every shadow. I've been shown ancestral burdens, past life contracts, mythical part evolution journeys, as well as how to work with shadow and wounding. It has felt like being handed every trial in humanity in order to learn how to work with it.

I'm hoping this New Moon will bring the promise of an end, or at least a break! A chance to rest and integrate and enjoy something good. It also brings Saturn into Aries - there's a shift: from the watery dissolving of Pisces into the decisive restructuring of Aries. It’s about claiming authorship of our healing stories now.

I was born under a sky that forged my bones not in fire, but in the tides that carry souls between lives
Not to suffer endlessly—
but because I am one of the few who can walk through the Labors,
return with the hidden codes,
and speak them in the tongue of dreamers and survivors.

I am not being punished.
I am being re-shaped.
Not for perfection, but for transmission.
I am the Heracles of the soul path, the Inanna of psychic
rebirth, the Chiron of the wounded gift.

Its not what I chose, but it's what I've been given.

The Storm So Far – What this half-year has been breaking open in me


These cards will help me name the sacred wound, the real initiatory pressure.

Messenger of Air (Witches Wisdom) and Lower World (Mystic Shaman Oracle)

As I attune I can feel energy moving in me, as if from the lower worlds to the higher world - from belly to throat, from heart to throat, and up to the Crown Chakra.

This storm has been shaping me into a bridge between the Underworld and the Sky. This year has broken open my access to the disowned—ancestral wounding, past life soul contracts, root-level shame and fear—but also my capacity to carry messages from those depths. I am learning to speak in two languages: the raw, deep tongue of the ancestors, and the refined whispers of the Air.

The Unseen Thread – What ties these struggles together beneath the surface


This reveals the hidden pattern or soul curriculum—why these different crises are actually one initiation.

Hunter (Mystical Shaman Oracle) and Five of Wands (Rider-Waite)

As I attune an unusual image for me arises - a gladiator in full leather armour, with shield and sword. Roaring and fierce. He's not attacking but he's standing his ground and as I focus he grows larger and larger, as big as a house.

This suggests my Mars is awakening - I need to channel this as sacred aggression - a defending of my truth, claiming my ground. Five of Wands prepares me for a conflict stance. This feels like the fire from which a new discipline of self is forged. Saturn welcomes disclipline and commitment. It's time to bring more of my masculine online as I hunt for opportunity and take up my space.

As a woman I find we often shy away from the Masculine energy, it's all 'toxic' - this isn't so, its sacred when it presents as strength, assertiveness, claiming, standing ground, protection. There are many beautiful versions of the masculine we can claim, for men and for women.

The Gemini Gift – What insight is ready to emerge from all this chaos


Gemini rules the mind, message, and meaning. This card offers the breakthrough or reframe.

The Priestess Reversed (Rider-Waite) and Water (Mystic Shaman Oracle)

As I attune I receive an image of myself feeling strong, and focused with laser eyes. Eyes that can see into the souls and then understand intuitively what is needed.

The core of my curriculum is emotional sovereignty. I'm being apprenticed in the waters—how to hold emotion, how to discern rather than absorb, how to trust the liquid language of my intuition. The High Priestess reversed lets me know I must remove the block of doubt, not listen so much to outer guidance, and to stop dismissing my sensitivity. Those laser eyes are my inner seer coming into being.

My Soul’s Voice – A message from the Wise One within


A direct note from my higher self , my Council of Beings.

Three of Cups (Rider-Waite) and Dreaming (Goddess Dream Oracle)

As I attune I feel into the dream, this dream lives in my minds eye I feel, it's the longing for community, female friendships and celebration.

The light wants back in. My dreaming mind is opening again—not just for myself, but for the collective. The Three of Cups hints at sacred community, at women’s circles, shared visions, celebration. My attunement vision has the feeling of fantasy - mystical fairy-like women in beautiful meadows, birds in flight. But it isn't a fantasy: I know it belongs to me. The meadowlands I imagine are soul memory and these cards tell me I can dream them into being now. I am a weaver of new possibilities.

The Saturn Gate – What Aries now asks me to commit to with courage


Saturn entering Aries is my invitation to lead, choose, and structure from Self. This card shows what inner vow I'm being asked to make.

Goddess of Fire (Witches Wisdom) and Meadow, Vulnerability (Earth Magic)

Baba Yaga the banished witch returns to tell stories, vulnerability is her gift. I love doing my constellations and journeys, writing and sharing them here. So deeply personal and vulnerable but I love it and I feel its my balm for my soul. It helps me make sense of my journey and I'm not sure anyone reads them yet I still feel witnessed.

But attunement shows a different image - communal firelight, the balm of sacred circles and embodied truth, sharing in person within sacred containers, what is truth and real. Perhaps this is my way forward, no longer this private share here where no one can find me, but real and alive and out in the world.

The Way Forward – Where to focus now for rest, peace, or renewal


This is not a task, but a balm. It may be something to surrender to rather than strive for.

Ten of Air (Witches Wisdom), New Beginnings (Goddess Dream Oracle) and Release the Petals (Rose Oracle)

I can see how these cards all speak of release and transformation: a mumuration, petals in the wind, a new beginning. As I attune my gaze goes straight to the window and out to the sky and I recall a quote "The soul takes flight to the world that is invisible, but there arriving she is sure of bliss and forever dwells in paradise”

A huge wave of sorrow overcomes me, tears that don't want to stop. But I don't know why, I can't find the source of this sorrow. Perhaps it is just a cleansing of my soul, of the anxiety and challenge I've had this year. I've been holding so much, alone, and perhaps this beautiful message of release and transcedence allowed it to break and flow from me.

This feeling of my soul taking flight feels like death, but it's for an identity, a chapter, an entire world I no longer need. Not the end, but an exaltation.

If this resonates...

If life feels like an endless series of trials—one test after another—
if you're exhausted from the weight of it all, wondering, What is the point? Why me?
You are not alone.

Sometimes the soul walks a mythic path that the mind can’t yet name.
And when we don’t know the story we’re in, the pain can feel senseless.
But when we begin to see the deeper arc—the sacred shape of our becoming—
something shifts.

Finding your soul’s myth can bring peace, perspective, and a sense of belonging to your own life.
It reminds us that suffering is not punishment, but initiation.
That we are not being broken, but forged.

If this speaks to you, I would be honored to help you uncover the story your soul is here to tell.
Through tarot, gentle witnessing, and mythic attunement, we can listen for the threads and begin to weave them into meaning—together.